In today's date, who doesn't want to be a youtuber? May them be an introvert or an extrovert, everyone has a desire to have their own channel. Same goes with me. But this story didn't start today. It was long into the past when I was a teenager. I was 15 years old. Oh! I forgot to mention in my introduction, I am an ICSE student. May be that's not of a big deal for you, but it is for me, my family and my relatives. I studied in a well reputed college. And to add a cherry on the cake, I was an academically good performing student (among the toppers). So, they had many expectations from me. How does this relate to today's topic? It relates because, since people had many expectations upon me, I could not start with what I wanted to. I was made to give all of my attention onto my studies, which in real helped me secure ALHAMDULILLA! good result. But, still I wasn't able to do what I wanted to. Not just in this particular scenario, but there are many other choices in my life which I had to change for others happiness. We will talk about them later.
Now comes today, I am a second time NEET dropper, so I am as usually expected to study a lot more dedicatedly than usual. But I had some other plans. Having tried with a cooking YouTube channel and unable to post regularly with my studies along. I dropped it within few weeks of starting. Though I want to continue doing it after my exam, but still I am zero on that project.
Recently I have been facing a lot of difficult time on concentrating towards studies. Same problem as I used to face in my previous two years. Which made me stand here, where I wasn't supposed to be, considering my previous performances. So, I came across these YouTube channels called "STUDY WITH ME" And to some extent they brought back my efficiency to a point where I could now concentrate. So, I was flashed with this idea to create my own study with me channel. So that I will be at least 90% consistent with my studies and also my dream to have a YouTube channel will be fulfilled.
I decided to devote my complete today's day to bring this idea to action. So, I started to learn how to go live, start streaming, do's and don'ts, basically everything one needs to know. Only to fail miserably.
I was brought back to reality that I cannot stream on mobile without 1000 subscribers. Holy shit! I did not even have a channel (with that ID I wanted to use) few hours ago. And now they want subscribers? Where do I get them from? NO IDEA...
So, now I started searching for videos that showed how to stream without having 1000 subscribers. I downloded few apps that allowed streaming, only to figure out my camera had bad quality. It made zero difference to me. Still I wanted to do what I wanted to do. But then those apps failed miserably too. I tried other ways too. But anything I tried wasn't working. I don't know why?
Then I thought to myself. May be the universe is trying to give me a sign that. Beta abhi idhar udhar dimag mat daal, padle, akhiri 40 days bache hai exam ko. Aur tujhe is baar kar dikhana hai. So, finally I decided today to again whole heartedly dedicate my attention towards studies.
I will make a promise today, infront of you people. I will put all my efforts into my studies. That's secondary whether or not I crack NEET this time. But I won't be left with the regret of not trying, as i was left in my previous two attempts
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